I very much realise that there are people living in a far more hellish situation than I am; but right now, today, I am going through my own kind of hell. My body is screaming at me again, but I am using every ounce of mental effort not to question that; to focus on the physical effort for now - persevering, determined to give this my best shot, to see if I can break through this pain barrier and create a return of 'normal' movement patterns. But it is hard. Today, my body is paying for being pushed to its limit at physio yesterday; but I have to keep at it and push it to its limit again today. I genuinely don't know if it is "killing me or... making me stronger" but I have to work at it, give it time and effort before we will know. So it does feel like working through my own, physical, hell - the pain is my hell and if working through it will get rid of it (even improve it slightly), right now, that is my incentive, my reason to keep going.
"If you're going through hell, keep going."
~ Winston Churchill ~